Surprised By My Own Words and Learning to Heal

In the denial came the inability to heal.

Without accepting what it was I really had and was experiencing, I couldn’t get the help or the tools that I needed.

Have you ever had the experience of listening to yourself talk and hearing ideas and thoughts crystalize as you are speaking in ways you hadn’t previously thought of them before? Or gathered insight from the way the words sound as they are coming out of your mouth, rather than knowing exactly what you are going to say before you say it?

That’s what happened to me when my husband interviewed me for the new series on his podcast about the making of our Invisible Illness documentary. I didn’t want to be interviewed, truth be told. If you listen to the interview, you’ll find out why within the first thirty seconds. But I acquiesced.

Although I imagine I’ll have a significant vulnerability hangover now that it’s live, I’m thankful for the insight I gained in hearing myself talk about this important project and why it needs to be done, even if I’m the one that has to do it.

When you see your experience acknowledged and hear your own words echoed back to you, it opens a new world of possibility in every arena.

People need to know that they are not alone.

If I had to choose one goal or mission for this documentary project, it is easily summed up in the quote above… we cannot live our best life in isolation. We cannot fulfill our purpose or calling completely alone. We are made for each other, for community, for connection. Anything that isolates and separates is contrary to our true nature and to our best self and health.

People who have previously been “normal” functioning productive members of society who are now sidelined and they are in their homes and struggling with their identity, who they are and who they thought they were going to be and what they can do in a day. It’s incredibly isolating. You feel abandoned by life, the world and the people around you because you can’t explain what it’s like to live and deal with an invisible illness.

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